Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Everyone's a little cranky
Yesterday was a long day with no naps, the crankiness carried into today. I'm not sure there's been more than 10 minutes go by without someone crying. I took my turn this morning. Malakai is a precious and joyful child. He bounces when I try to dress him (leads to lots of bruises!) in the morning and he punched me in the left eye by accident today. He got my right eye the other day and I'm still a little fuzzy eyed from it. I know he didn't mean to and he's so precious when he realizes he hurt mommy. He caresses my face and gives me a little kiss where he hurt me.
We're all tired. Amiya has started biting and hitting a lot more today, I can only assume it's because she's tired and worn out. She'll touch something the wrong way (it can't possibly hurt) and just start wailing. We can easily tell her fake-I'm trying to get what I want cry from a genuine hurting cry. Regardless, a wailing 3 year old throwing a tantrum is no fun to deal with and feel like everyone thinks you're beating the child! We're trying to figure out how to discipline this child. We've been popping her hand when she hits or thumping her cheek when she bites but her revenge is to continue hitting, how many times do you go back and forth before enough is enough! Sometimes I will ignore her last attempt at a hit and move away from her, let her scream and eventually she comes back and wants to be a part of what we're doing.
Today I am overwhelmed & want to give up. I wonder if these children will every behave properly in public. Will they always run in 2 different directions. Will Amiya always act like she hates me, will she mind me. Will we be able to train up these children to be followers of Christ. I am just done with today, I don't feel sufficient, I don't feel prepared. I know only God can give me the strength. I'm confident These children are still alive today for a greater purpose than I can ever imagine I just pray that we will not give up, for wisdom, guidance, patience, understanding, a little chocolate would be nice right now and a most of all for strength. How on earth are we going to get these kids through 30 hours in the airport and air plane!? Ambien in the sippy cup is sounding really good right now...I'm totally kidding!